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Rjaatt Replied:
No, No, and I have no idea yet! But anything has to be better then living like this stuck in a child's room... I'm 56yrs old OMG I'm not My Daughters Child and if I was this is a horrible way to have taken care of a child.
If I had been a bad Mother I could understand all of this, OMG if my daughter had MY MOTHER! I could understand it, I ran away 3 times from my parents.... I also ran away 5 times from my husband only to be returned...like OMG! Am I someones Property? Do they really OWN ME? NOPE!
It's Ok, the last time I tried to leave my daughter waited 6 hrs before she called the police and she was only 20min away now how sad is that... Anyway... This time they will be out of STATE and I have 4 days to get away....
This is not to worry anyone, even though I might be doing this I am just trying to get help and Knowledge mainly.... So Right now giving me info would be more helpful, if you all don't mind...
You got to understand I have been a stay at home mother and grandmother for 35yrs and now I have become Nothing to the family because I gave everything I had to them now I am usless to then and they are just waiting for me to die.. but I'm not dying... and God wants me Alive! I have figured that much out.
I don't have any other family, everyone is gone... All I had was my daughter, and her family, I asked my son last year if he would take me but he has not spoken to me in 2yrs.. Why? Well he has daddy issues divorice issues and blames me for being aweak woman.... sad to say...
What I need most is for you wonderful people to be here when I come back, not sure when this might be but this is my Safe Place away from my family, a way from my world. This is the only place that has helped me lose the weight and be strong enough to Find My Self.... To realize I'm not being the Woman I know I am... And I am a strong woman, I always have been, its just that I am Codependent and I have allowed my husband (ex) to take power over me my life, and now I have allowed my daughter to do the same take Power over my life. The only smart thing I have ever done was "REFUSE" for them to take "POWER OF ATTORNEY" over me. that might have been a Good Decision on my part...
I'm trying to find a place in Nevada, since that is where my drivers licence is.... Best I return there first... and Restart My Life.... Always go back to where it all happened and start over.. and that is where the last mistake happened, even though it was not my mistake it was still a mistake....
If all of this flops in my face, all I can do is ask that you all be kind to me when I RETURN! Because I will need People who Care and not people who say "I TOLD YOU SO"...that will not help me... I just need people to have "OPEN ARMS"... and welcome me back.... unconditional love and kindness...
Anyway Finally they left, I don't know how much longer I could have held my self.. the restroom was a gradituted today... LOL... I found a Bucket just incase next time this happends again...
Well, just know that you are all so wonderful and my heart goes out to each and every one of you.. Stay on your Diets, enjoy The 100days Book for it SAVED MY LIFE... in so many ways..
IT Woke ME UP..... Showed me I don't deserve this kind of treatment and If I am ever going to take my life back then I have to FIX MYSELF FIRST.. and I have finally done that.... Myabe God has a journey for me to go on.. Since I have lost all this weight now its time to put it too good use... and walk off the flab and get strong minded again.... That is what I think he wants from me...
Maybe is so History Doesn't Repeat it self, maybe God wants my Daughter to have a Wake Up Call and show her that this is wrong... how you treat people. I mean OMG this is the reason I was so unhappy in my marriage..... all the control.... I mean we wernt even allowed to have friends and my daughter knows this... she couldn't even take her bike around the block she only had 3 houses she could ride it their and back...
Anyway... I'm Thankful for all of you... so just always remember that you were better friends then my own family was too me and that to me is a GIFT of LOVE...
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